I think guys are stupid stinkers!! I met john and he looked much worse than his picture he was quite unattractive and had really horrible teeth so i dissapeared on him and I have pretty much not heard from him since saturday (3 days ago)
That is not why guys stink tho lol
I have got a friend called Iain whom I get along with very well and we have sorta had a "thing" going pretty much since we met. On the first night I met him I was all giggly and touchy feely and threw money in his beer because I was very nervous so I acted up a bit but amazingly he wanted to see me again!! I was so surprised.
So we met up again after that quite a lot about once a week to start with and would do things like go a walk by the clyde in glasgow and go to pubs for lunch and go to the west end for a wander etc I always had a good time with him.
I realised I had feelings for him the first time I met his mother (weird scenario I know)I met Iain in town with cameron and we got a bus to his mums, got off the bus and walked over to his mums flat (Iain lived there at the time as well) and entered the building. It was a really nice place(funily enough as it was bearsden).
Iains mum greated us in a friendly manner and told me to make myself comfortable and instantly started fussing over if I was comfy or hungry etc. After I spoke to her for a bit she put pizza and chips on and said she would take cameron out a walk to give us some time to relax which was very nice of her.
When Iains mum went out we ate our pizza and chips and put on a movie in his room and got cozy, it was about then I realised how I felt as I was all goosebumpy and just wanted more than anything to kiss him and give him a big hug so I kept doing my usual flirty touches and tickles etc. It was a very nice day I really enjoyed myself.
A few months later Iain asked me if I wanted to go on a date with him which for some reason I was doubtfull and had to think it over. At that point I was still in love with my ex Darren and as much as I had feelings for Iain they were not as strong as the feelings I had for asshole Darren K, so i kinda declined the offer but still leaving it open for the possibility in the future.
A few weeks later I went on holiday up north with the asshole ex and we had a great time and i unfortunately fell for him even more. When we got back I was very confused because even though we had talked about exclusively "sleeping together" he went back to being the same old person as ever and I started to think I had imagined the entire conversation.
A few days later I went out for Iains birthday with him in glasgow and we got really really drunk and he stayed the night. We ended up sleeping together (although to this day I cant remember any of it just remember waking up in the morning feeling as if I had cheated on darren which was silly as we were not committed.) I went for a bath as I felt horrible and burst out into tears and told Darren what I thought had happened and he completely overreacted making me feel even more guilty.
I ended the friendship with Iain that day as the guilt was too much to continue it at that point.
Anything darren and I had pretty much ended when that happened but we stayed friends. About 6 months later I came across an add that Iain had put on gumtree and emailed him and we started talking again. We text a bit and emailed a bit for a few months then we met up again and everything just went back to normal. I was so glad to have him back in my life and our friendship felt better than ever, I actually hugged him when I wanted too without feeling nervous etc.
A few months later when I started college I told Iain how i felt about him and we started dating. it felt awkward at first but after a few days i got into it but I still had feelings for darren in the back of my mind. All it took for me to sabbotage things with Iain was him to tell me that he didnt do his teeth in the morning and I put an end to the relationship pretty soon after.
It wasnt actually that he didnt do his teeth that bothered me though, that was just the icing on the cake. The real reasons for ending it were:
My feelings for darren...
The fact that in the 3 weeks I was with Iain he did not flirt with me once did not respond to my flirty naughty messages about being in the bath etc and we hardly kissed or anything. we felt more like friends than a couple
When I ended it Iain and I stayed in touch but he refused to meet up as he was too hurt so we didnt meet for about 5 months just text every now and then.
Eventually Iain found a pair of balls and agreed to meet up with me again and we had a nice lunch in glasgow with cameron. I then introduced him to karin and we met up with him for drinks in glasgow then went to his house after cinema one monday then had him over at mine for a movie and then went to his for dinner and a movie after our cinema monday the following week again.
In that time I have realised that my feelings for him have not gone away at all. If anything they have got stronger as I have weird dreams and day dreams about having our own we house and we life and being married with kids etc :S which is a bit concerning. Especially seeing as like when we were dating he doesnt flirt or respond to messages about being in the bath etc and just doesnt seem to realise no matter how much I try point it out that I really like him. Also this time darren wont get in the way he hasnt been in my life since christms day.
When i mention feelings and the past to Iain he blames it on cameron says that he has issues about cameron being someone elses kid etc which is complete rubbish as he was gutted when I ended the relationship and didnt want it to end and also he has known about and been fine with cameron from the day we met so why would it be an issue now??
I just do not get guys at all!!
Aaaaaaaaagghhhh...stupid ppls!!
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